↔ life on the terms of life is often anything but funny. ↔
Posted: Mon, Jun 19, 2006 10:41:24 AM
but if i can keep a sense of humor about me, things that might overwhelm me can be made bearable.
so hopefully you all will forgive for twisting the title up a bit. my blog software hates quotes of any kind in the title so, sometimes i need to rearrange stuff to get it work.
and hopefully my faithful readers will forgive me running out this morning without musing about the reading. it was so nice and cool I decided to do a bit of gardening before the sun really took over.
so excuses and apologies are out of the way, and exactly what should i write about. well i could whine about my sore back, but the irony of it is, if i had not been so obsessed with what i was doing yesterday, my lower back would be just fine! obsession and pain -- HMMMM -- quite a combination when i am thinking about how humor and my sense of it fits into the whole scheme of this recovery gig. i do know that when i take everything seriously that i am mostly ready to scream and run away pulling the hair from out of my head. and without a doubt when i look at the absurdity of the current nature of my insanity, it does help me to put it all into some sort of perspective. and sometimes looking at how silly i am, and sharing about it may provide another addict with the perspective they need to let go of all the pain and try to find the a bit of humor. does that mean i look at life as some sort of cosmic joke? HMMMMM -- never thought of it that way, but it really could be. the truth be told, everything i see and feel, could have an element of silliness in it, even the fact that although i did not ask to be afflicted with addiction, here i am in the process of recovering from it. truly the irony of that is that i have a much better life since embarking on this course than i ever could have imagined. and you know what? the less i fight it the more fun it is. and the real truth is that when i resist, and whine, and am miserable nothing much changes and i end up being a laughingstock to myself when i finally let go. yes recovery is serious bidness, but that does not mean i have to be deadly serious all the time. in fact i think i will lighten up a bit and see what silliness i can laugh about today. if i find anything i will let you know!
so hopefully you all will forgive for twisting the title up a bit. my blog software hates quotes of any kind in the title so, sometimes i need to rearrange stuff to get it work.
and hopefully my faithful readers will forgive me running out this morning without musing about the reading. it was so nice and cool I decided to do a bit of gardening before the sun really took over.
so excuses and apologies are out of the way, and exactly what should i write about. well i could whine about my sore back, but the irony of it is, if i had not been so obsessed with what i was doing yesterday, my lower back would be just fine! obsession and pain -- HMMMM -- quite a combination when i am thinking about how humor and my sense of it fits into the whole scheme of this recovery gig. i do know that when i take everything seriously that i am mostly ready to scream and run away pulling the hair from out of my head. and without a doubt when i look at the absurdity of the current nature of my insanity, it does help me to put it all into some sort of perspective. and sometimes looking at how silly i am, and sharing about it may provide another addict with the perspective they need to let go of all the pain and try to find the a bit of humor. does that mean i look at life as some sort of cosmic joke? HMMMMM -- never thought of it that way, but it really could be. the truth be told, everything i see and feel, could have an element of silliness in it, even the fact that although i did not ask to be afflicted with addiction, here i am in the process of recovering from it. truly the irony of that is that i have a much better life since embarking on this course than i ever could have imagined. and you know what? the less i fight it the more fun it is. and the real truth is that when i resist, and whine, and am miserable nothing much changes and i end up being a laughingstock to myself when i finally let go. yes recovery is serious bidness, but that does not mean i have to be deadly serious all the time. in fact i think i will lighten up a bit and see what silliness i can laugh about today. if i find anything i will let you know!
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