โ words can never express all that i mean when my deepest feelings of compassion are involved โ
Posted: Wed, Sep 10, 2008 09:23:12 AM
language is inadequate to reach a wounded soul, as only the touch of a loving Higher Power can heal an injury to the spirit.
some preliminaries first. my sincerest thanks goes out to all of my friends, peers, and fellow travelers who have or will call or e-mail congratulating me on allowing my HIGHER POWER to give me eleven years of consecutive days clean. it is a surrendering of my will to that of my HIGHER POWER’s that allowed this event to happen. i do not miss the irony that after almost eleven years clean, i volunteered for the the whole painkiller experiment, i also see that as the work of a Force that is far beyond my ken, that at this point in my life, i would be given the choice to undergo a procedure that just may fix the only nagging health problem i have left. a quick update -- i have taken no narcotic medication since 9:55 PM September 9, 2008. my intent is that is the last one, BUT i will listen to what my body is telling me and the outcome has yet to be written.
okay preliminary number two, up until this morning, i felt ripped off about having this reading as the one that came up on my clean date. in fact, i used to spend about fifteen minutes searching through the just for today book for one i liked better, so that i could reset my clean date anniversary. what has changed? well after listening to other members share about how much they liked or did not like a particular passage, i saw that it was me, not my clean date, nor the literature that had to change. i still giggle inside when i hear someone start their share with "i really liked the reading today…"
i chose this date way back when for a variety of reasons, and even if those reasons are no longer valid today, i have come to the conclusion that there are no coincidences and in fact this allows me to segue into another quick thought:
perhaps, that was also meant to be. thinking on how inadequate language is to heal a wounded soul, and understanding how inadequate i feel when i try to express my sympathy or empathy with words alone, this reading goes a long way in letting me know that there really are no words that can do the trick. my job, should i choose to accept it, is to be there, be present, and offer the spiritual support that i can offer, and absolutely, positively nothing more. i am after all, only human. so after all of that it is time to shower, shave, get out into the day and DANG IT recover! life is my gift today and i choose to cherish it and be grateful for it.
some preliminaries first. my sincerest thanks goes out to all of my friends, peers, and fellow travelers who have or will call or e-mail congratulating me on allowing my HIGHER POWER to give me eleven years of consecutive days clean. it is a surrendering of my will to that of my HIGHER POWER’s that allowed this event to happen. i do not miss the irony that after almost eleven years clean, i volunteered for the the whole painkiller experiment, i also see that as the work of a Force that is far beyond my ken, that at this point in my life, i would be given the choice to undergo a procedure that just may fix the only nagging health problem i have left. a quick update -- i have taken no narcotic medication since 9:55 PM September 9, 2008. my intent is that is the last one, BUT i will listen to what my body is telling me and the outcome has yet to be written.
okay preliminary number two, up until this morning, i felt ripped off about having this reading as the one that came up on my clean date. in fact, i used to spend about fifteen minutes searching through the just for today book for one i liked better, so that i could reset my clean date anniversary. what has changed? well after listening to other members share about how much they liked or did not like a particular passage, i saw that it was me, not my clean date, nor the literature that had to change. i still giggle inside when i hear someone start their share with "i really liked the reading today…"
i chose this date way back when for a variety of reasons, and even if those reasons are no longer valid today, i have come to the conclusion that there are no coincidences and in fact this allows me to segue into another quick thought:
HAPPY 2 YEAR ANNIVERSARY OF YOUR CLEAN DATE LEONARD H,
IT IS AN HONOR TO HAVE YOU AS A MEMBER OF MY SPONSORSHIP FAMILY
perhaps, that was also meant to be. thinking on how inadequate language is to heal a wounded soul, and understanding how inadequate i feel when i try to express my sympathy or empathy with words alone, this reading goes a long way in letting me know that there really are no words that can do the trick. my job, should i choose to accept it, is to be there, be present, and offer the spiritual support that i can offer, and absolutely, positively nothing more. i am after all, only human. so after all of that it is time to shower, shave, get out into the day and DANG IT recover! life is my gift today and i choose to cherish it and be grateful for it.
∞ DT ∞