โ restoration to sanity โ
Posted: Mon, Dec 27, 2004 06:14:37 AM
this morning's reading goes to the heart of a troubling question, if i am insane, am i really being restored to sanity? if i had this disease since i was born and was insane since that time, what am really being restored to?
the answer is in the evidence of my behavior. i know today that i behave in a more rational manner than any time in the past. i am also surrounded by people who tell me point blank that i am being crazy. instead of arguing the point, i accept that maybe they can see something i do not and i alter me behavior. most of the evidence comes from my interactions with the REAL world, i hardly ever get that puzzled what the f--k look anymore.
so after a brief review and applying this morning's standard i am being restored to my definition of sanity -- being able to do what i need to without leaving a wake of destruction behind -- .
of course the converse of this argument is am i still insane? the answer has to be an unqualified YES or i would be cured. i am not as insane as when i walked into the rooms, everyday. i have moments of sanity and insanity, but for the most part the promise is coming true, i am learning a NEW WAY TO LIVE and i do have a POWER that is greater than me working to remove the insanity within me!
-- DT --
the answer is in the evidence of my behavior. i know today that i behave in a more rational manner than any time in the past. i am also surrounded by people who tell me point blank that i am being crazy. instead of arguing the point, i accept that maybe they can see something i do not and i alter me behavior. most of the evidence comes from my interactions with the REAL world, i hardly ever get that puzzled what the f--k look anymore.
so after a brief review and applying this morning's standard i am being restored to my definition of sanity -- being able to do what i need to without leaving a wake of destruction behind -- .
of course the converse of this argument is am i still insane? the answer has to be an unqualified YES or i would be cured. i am not as insane as when i walked into the rooms, everyday. i have moments of sanity and insanity, but for the most part the promise is coming true, i am learning a NEW WAY TO LIVE and i do have a POWER that is greater than me working to remove the insanity within me!
-- DT --