โ because i have the desire to continue enjoying the life that has been given to me โ
Posted: Thu, Jun 30, 2011 09:02:07 AM
i will take steps to maintain the foundation of my freedom.
okay let me honest here for just a second before diving hook, line and sinker into the party line. this week has sucked. everything took twice as long and had more hooks and hoops than i ever had before, and everything that i wanted to accomplish has not been done. all things being equal i would have rather been working for a corporation than for myself, as i would have got paid, BY THE HOUR, instead of by the task and been better off financially this morning.
i could cut the cheese to complement that fine whine, and yes i usually do not like being negative, but life happens and boy has it been happening professionally this week for me, life stuff not the rolling in dough fantasy i often have. the irony here, is i was telling my newest sponsee about how automatic the daily stuff for maintaining my recovery has become. the reading reminds that automatic or not, i need to be mindful and present of what i am doing and why i do it. to let maintaining my recover slip into superstition or ritual, because i have become habituated to doing it, for me, could be just as deadly as doing no maintenance at all.
anyhow, i have people screeching for my attention and although i probably have much more to say, i will end it there and see what i can get done to catch up on all the time i lost this week not making whole lot of progress on my paid projects. i can and will be grateful that at least i am alive and kicking and complaining about my stake in life is certainly evidence of that.
okay let me honest here for just a second before diving hook, line and sinker into the party line. this week has sucked. everything took twice as long and had more hooks and hoops than i ever had before, and everything that i wanted to accomplish has not been done. all things being equal i would have rather been working for a corporation than for myself, as i would have got paid, BY THE HOUR, instead of by the task and been better off financially this morning.
i could cut the cheese to complement that fine whine, and yes i usually do not like being negative, but life happens and boy has it been happening professionally this week for me, life stuff not the rolling in dough fantasy i often have. the irony here, is i was telling my newest sponsee about how automatic the daily stuff for maintaining my recovery has become. the reading reminds that automatic or not, i need to be mindful and present of what i am doing and why i do it. to let maintaining my recover slip into superstition or ritual, because i have become habituated to doing it, for me, could be just as deadly as doing no maintenance at all.
anyhow, i have people screeching for my attention and although i probably have much more to say, i will end it there and see what i can get done to catch up on all the time i lost this week not making whole lot of progress on my paid projects. i can and will be grateful that at least i am alive and kicking and complaining about my stake in life is certainly evidence of that.
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