β when i realize that honest sharing is not life-threatening β
Posted: Tue, Aug 28, 2012 09:09:54 AM
my secrets lose their power over me.
TAKE TWO
walmart.com, the worst customer service in the world. the people are nice but basically useless!
okay that little adventure is done i can move into today.
as i was saying before i so rudely interrupted myself, by writing a post to a consumer b!tch site. more than likely a waste of my time, since the complaint, since reading the comments indicates that at least on that slice of the web, everyone had the exact same issue. feels good to vent though!
what struck me about the reading this morning, is that it fits so well with where i am in my recovery program these days, secrets are killing me, slowly but surely, sort of like lead poisoning. yes i get a purge from system periodically when i work the steps, formally, but in the mean time, they roll around and cause their insidious damage to spiritual well-being.
where am i really? well, i am ready to have all, those things that are part of me, that block mew from becoming the person and the man i have always wanted to be, removed. am i entirely ready? well…
that is why i have a sponsor and trust him with my sh!t. for one, i know he does not carry the burden of my crap and two he help me put it all into perspective. ironically i am dealing with issues that have haunted me for decades, so i want to be rid of them yesterday. i want them ripped out in one swell foop, to use an appropriate malapropism. what i am getting is the not yet message from the POWER that fuels my recovery, as it will be another eight days before i can sit down and talk with him.
WAH — WAH — WAH!
what to do? do the next right thing, which is a quick run, finish a project, cleanup what i owe a client, hang with the guys and go to a meeting. a full day, and one where my secrets may or may not be revealed to everyone. i want to be better, and am willing to do what it takes, one day at a time. so off to the streets and into what is left of this particular morning.
TAKE TWO
walmart.com, the worst customer service in the world. the people are nice but basically useless!
okay that little adventure is done i can move into today.
as i was saying before i so rudely interrupted myself, by writing a post to a consumer b!tch site. more than likely a waste of my time, since the complaint, since reading the comments indicates that at least on that slice of the web, everyone had the exact same issue. feels good to vent though!
what struck me about the reading this morning, is that it fits so well with where i am in my recovery program these days, secrets are killing me, slowly but surely, sort of like lead poisoning. yes i get a purge from system periodically when i work the steps, formally, but in the mean time, they roll around and cause their insidious damage to spiritual well-being.
where am i really? well, i am ready to have all, those things that are part of me, that block mew from becoming the person and the man i have always wanted to be, removed. am i entirely ready? well…
that is why i have a sponsor and trust him with my sh!t. for one, i know he does not carry the burden of my crap and two he help me put it all into perspective. ironically i am dealing with issues that have haunted me for decades, so i want to be rid of them yesterday. i want them ripped out in one swell foop, to use an appropriate malapropism. what i am getting is the not yet message from the POWER that fuels my recovery, as it will be another eight days before i can sit down and talk with him.
WAH — WAH — WAH!
what to do? do the next right thing, which is a quick run, finish a project, cleanup what i owe a client, hang with the guys and go to a meeting. a full day, and one where my secrets may or may not be revealed to everyone. i want to be better, and am willing to do what it takes, one day at a time. so off to the streets and into what is left of this particular morning.
∞ DT ∞