Some memes

well lately i have been dancing around an issue in my spiritual growth. although i still feel that this is not the forum to share it in yet, i can say that finally i see my insanity for what it is, and i am amazed that i have been able to go on with life as well as i have. that is not to say that everything is just fine and dandy, but things are better today and i can recognize how this particular version of insanity is affecting my behavior and my relationships with those i love, my employer, my friends and those whom i have come to trust in the fellowship.
WOW, what a load of shit!
fear, uncertainty, and doubt have left me riddled with bullet holes, allowing my spiritual being to gush out of a hundred different orifices.
the good news?? i did not have to use, i have kept going to meetings, i have continued my daily program of maintenance and i am still willing to look at my spiritual experience and ask someone who may have another angle to help sort my way through it and find a bit of the balance i have been lacking lately.
and that is the result of my meditation this morning, i may be in a spot, but i do not have to remain there. i can and will recover, if i once again surrender to the disease of addiction and set the spiritual side of myself free once more.
∞ DT ∞