โฅ i DID not experience a sudden, total relief from my defects โฅ
Posted: Fri, Apr 18, 2014 09:43:49 AM
but i DID experience a subtle shift in my perceptions of myself and others.
so this is in two parts or so it seems. i started this, then i had to take our Daisy to get chipped and snipped, anyhow it is what it is.
before i get to far down the road:
so i have my head down and i am pounding away at my work tasks and doing my best not to think of all of that and let it all be as it will be.
which brings me back to the here and now. yes, i did once wish that all my shortcomings would instantly be removed, i remember how light i felt after my first REAL SEVENTH Step, and that experience was the one that convinced me, that i was on the right path. much has happened since, but none of that has made me abandon or alter the direction that my life in recovery is taking me. i am grateful to be clean and even though i am closer to 60 than i am to 50, i still feel as if i am sometimes only 30 or even younger, as i do not seem to see the world the way i think old guys like do. there is a certain wonder that all my cynicism does not ever seem to kill, and part of that, i am coming to believe is that i did not shuffle off this mortal coli, as an active addict or before i had a chance to sample this new way of living. so i do get it and yes, today i can say that:“I Understand.”
so this is in two parts or so it seems. i started this, then i had to take our Daisy to get chipped and snipped, anyhow it is what it is.
before i get to far down the road:
Congrats Jim E,
Three (3) YEARS Clean,
Awesome JOB.
Thank you for being here for me
so i have my head down and i am pounding away at my work tasks and doing my best not to think of all of that and let it all be as it will be.
which brings me back to the here and now. yes, i did once wish that all my shortcomings would instantly be removed, i remember how light i felt after my first REAL SEVENTH Step, and that experience was the one that convinced me, that i was on the right path. much has happened since, but none of that has made me abandon or alter the direction that my life in recovery is taking me. i am grateful to be clean and even though i am closer to 60 than i am to 50, i still feel as if i am sometimes only 30 or even younger, as i do not seem to see the world the way i think old guys like do. there is a certain wonder that all my cynicism does not ever seem to kill, and part of that, i am coming to believe is that i did not shuffle off this mortal coli, as an active addict or before i had a chance to sample this new way of living. so i do get it and yes, today i can say that:“I Understand.”
∞ DT ∞