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Fri, Jun 22, 2007 08:50:16 AM
δ i discover how to change my attitudes and let go of character defects. δ
posted: Fri, Jun 22, 2007 08:50:16 AM
i no longer need to distort the truth or to run from situations.
there has to be a morning after, and there is! this morning i am starting to sort through exactly what happened with my sponsor last night. i had more than a few expectations and actually what transpired did not even come close to what i expected. so there you have it, once again my expectations were far exceeded and perhaps i will start to accept that expectations are not the way to go.
anyway back to the reading his morning. what it said to me, and it echoes something my sponsor said last night was that i am not as defective as i believe. yes i have warped perceptions and reactions to life around me, and yes i have an automatic mode that needs to be deprogrammed by the steps. however, i am not 180 degrees off of the direction my spiritual life, yes i am off, that is a given considering that twenty-five years of active addiction, but the momentum of my continuing recovery is altering my spiritual path. it is quite true, that some days, like yesterday, i am quite unsatisfied with myself, my life and the world around me. and it is also true that days like today i am clam and serene, seemingly able to take things in stride, with very little angst.
so off to the real world and see if this feeling can be sustained, after all life is full of twists and turns and the road is hardly ever without a bump or three.
there has to be a morning after, and there is! this morning i am starting to sort through exactly what happened with my sponsor last night. i had more than a few expectations and actually what transpired did not even come close to what i expected. so there you have it, once again my expectations were far exceeded and perhaps i will start to accept that expectations are not the way to go.
anyway back to the reading his morning. what it said to me, and it echoes something my sponsor said last night was that i am not as defective as i believe. yes i have warped perceptions and reactions to life around me, and yes i have an automatic mode that needs to be deprogrammed by the steps. however, i am not 180 degrees off of the direction my spiritual life, yes i am off, that is a given considering that twenty-five years of active addiction, but the momentum of my continuing recovery is altering my spiritual path. it is quite true, that some days, like yesterday, i am quite unsatisfied with myself, my life and the world around me. and it is also true that days like today i am clam and serene, seemingly able to take things in stride, with very little angst.
so off to the real world and see if this feeling can be sustained, after all life is full of twists and turns and the road is hardly ever without a bump or three.
∞ DT ∞
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While the author is a member of a 12 Step recovery fellowship, these writings are not intended to endorse or express the published wisdom of any fellowship.
These writings are not meant to be socially or politically correct, and if you take issue with any opinions expressed, please seek the guidance of someone wiser than me.
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☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge
Book 2
1) To know and yet (think) we do not know is the highest (attainment);
not to know (and yet think) we do know is a disease.