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Wed, Jun 22, 2005 05:47:06 AM
δ practice, practice, practice δ
posted: Wed, Jun 22, 2005 05:47:06 AM
reminiscent of that ancient joke; how do i get to Carnegie Hall?
how do i accept myself, my life, and reality?
practicing the twelve steps, is not the answer i want although it may be the answer i seek. the results of working the steps and putting them into practice in my life seems to take way too long. i want self-acceptance today, right now, without any work or delay.
the truly ironic part of this, is that when i came to recovery i thought i accepted reality, i just did not want to deal with it. i thought i accepted myself just as i was and it was you people who did not have a clue. it was quite a rude awakening for me, when i realized that not only did i not accept myself, i actually loathed who and what i was. so the practice of the twelve steps opened my mind to the reality of my situation then, and that practice is still opening my mind today.
i seem to be gripping this expectation that after the few days and the number of steps i worked, that i should accept myself perfectly today. not that i have to be happy with what i find just accepting of who and what i am. part of the problem is that i am not quite sure who and what i am today, the certainty of early recovery has been replaced with a sense of wonderment about what i will uncover about myself today, and how it will all fit together in the long run. and this not knowing gig is a difficult pill for me to swallow -- so i am back to the top.
how can i learn to accept myself?
practice the twelve steps and see what happens!
∞ DT ∞
how do i accept myself, my life, and reality?
practicing the twelve steps, is not the answer i want although it may be the answer i seek. the results of working the steps and putting them into practice in my life seems to take way too long. i want self-acceptance today, right now, without any work or delay.
the truly ironic part of this, is that when i came to recovery i thought i accepted reality, i just did not want to deal with it. i thought i accepted myself just as i was and it was you people who did not have a clue. it was quite a rude awakening for me, when i realized that not only did i not accept myself, i actually loathed who and what i was. so the practice of the twelve steps opened my mind to the reality of my situation then, and that practice is still opening my mind today.
i seem to be gripping this expectation that after the few days and the number of steps i worked, that i should accept myself perfectly today. not that i have to be happy with what i find just accepting of who and what i am. part of the problem is that i am not quite sure who and what i am today, the certainty of early recovery has been replaced with a sense of wonderment about what i will uncover about myself today, and how it will all fit together in the long run. and this not knowing gig is a difficult pill for me to swallow -- so i am back to the top.
how can i learn to accept myself?
practice the twelve steps and see what happens!
∞ DT ∞
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While the author is a member of a 12 Step recovery fellowship, these writings are not intended to endorse or express the published wisdom of any fellowship.
These writings are not meant to be socially or politically correct, and if you take issue with any opinions expressed, please seek the guidance of someone wiser than me.
While the author is a member of a 12 Step recovery fellowship, these writings are not intended to endorse or express the published wisdom of any fellowship.
These writings are not meant to be socially or politically correct, and if you take issue with any opinions expressed, please seek the guidance of someone wiser than me.
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☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge
Book 2
3) To him by whom this harmony is known,
(The secret of) the unchanging (Tao) is shown,
And in the knowledge wisdom finds its throne.
All life-increasing arts to evil turn;
Where the mind makes the vital breath to burn,
(False) is the strength, (and o'er it we should mourn.)