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by reaching out to an addict who may need help. DAMMIT ALL! one of my peers, who i shall not name, has up to this been afraid to talk to me, due to some ancient history. they thought i might be harboring a resentment against them, because they threw another peer under the bus, legally and spiritually, denying the true extent of their own actions. well last night, they finally got up the balls to talk to me, and i told them that i was not holding a grudge. then they said, they would start calling me. that is what the DAMMIT ALL, was all about. i really do not like this person, nor am i willing to give up any of my time or attention to them as well. now that i know that i was protected through their behavior in the past, i am starting to cringe for what this may mean to me. for one, this person is a huge invader of personal space, and the next time they speak to me, i will prevent that from happening again. i am not quite sure what ironic twist in life this is playing out, but i have to believe that the POWER that fuels my recovery is creating an experience for me, that contains a valuable lesson, unfortunately that lesson is coming through one of the most odious, ignorant and obstinate members of the fellowship and i am doing my best to resist going any further.
it certainly will be up to that member how far forward this goes, but if it proceeds, they will learn very quickly what is appropriate in dealing with me, and what is not, as i will not tolerate being backed up into a wall EVER again!
as i am running a bit late, i will finish this though and have to run. i wonder if what i am supposed to learn is that i can help the still suffering addict, no matter what i feel about them on a personal level, establish some boundaries and keep my self-respect? certainly an interesting chain of events that have been set in motion, and one that i will do my best to see to a conclusion, one way or another.

∞ DT ∞