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responsibility for my behavior and for my recovery is something that has become second nature to me, and when i say i am sorry, i really am. today, as i sit on a train headed for County Cork, i am wondering if i can make it through today without having to say i am sorry, but only if i pay attention to what i do and say.
as i sat this morning, what kept coming to the surface was what i need to change within myself to accept the odious people that i have in my life. as i am far, far away from home, i do not need to concern myself with them. in the here and now, however, one of my traveling companions, is just clueless as to what she is like listening to. for me, it is a perfect exmple of who i can become on the drop of a dime, an expert on everything and have something to lecture on, even when not asked to do so. i am certainly highly critical of her and react rather than respond when she gets rolling. IF i am to survive this vacation, then i need to let go accept her for what she is and move on. oh, do my best to remember that she is who she is and just for today, i can let her be that person.

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